Good Times

This weekend I took the boys ice skating. My Aunt & cousin went with us. The boys had to endure shopping before the big event, but I think they thought it was worth it. We had a really good time. I went ice skating a couple of weeks ago in St. Louis so by this time, I was more steady on my feet. I actually spent most of my time skating backward. Skating really reminded me of going in Tulsa when I was a kid with my aunt, brother & cousins. I really liked it back then & still do apparently. I had a picture of my triple toe loop, but I don't know what happened to it!

Grandpa came home Friday. I spent the night over there on Saturday night to make sure the grandparents were being good. They did well. Spent most of Sunday over there with them. Grandma was itching to cook, so it was my pleasure to stay for her good cooking. Grandpa had a really good day on Sunday & was in pretty good spirits.

All in all it was a really good weekend. Have you ever been ice skating?

What's new

*I'm over my "depression"
*I haven't been motivated to blog
*I am getting caught up on school
*I'm actually enjoying my classes
*My sociology class is way easy
*I spent the night at the hospital Tuesday night & got 3 hours of sleep
*I made 4 broker calls yesterday & it was fun
*I am making a lot of progress with my new job
*I came to an agreement w/ SRP - could be ending soon
*Grandpa come home today
*Moved my office downstairs this week
*I am in the market for a suitor ;)
*Bought the boys Charlie & the Chocolate Factory this week (I saw it twice in the theater)
*I have two great loving boys
*Brayden told me that I was the best mom with the best singing voice!!!

That is about it for the week.

Misery Loves Company

Let me just start by saying that I am in a really bad mood. I hate when I am in a bad mood. I get really tired and then I start having thoughts that I am starting to go through a depression. But then I mentally slap myself and tell myself to get over it, I refuse to be in depression.

I sat around the house most of the weekend. It snowed here and initially the thought of sitting around the house with the fire, doing homework sounded nice. But I got over that by early yesterday morning. I managed to get out for church, but it started snowing again and they dismissed church early. So I headed for home again. I was going stir crazy by yesterday afternoon. So I blame part of my "depression" on the snow.

It seems as though many of my family members are having a hard time these days. Some are in a depression. I feel guilty for not being depressed, so I blame part of it on the fact that I feel I should be depressed like the rest of my family.

AND then I realize that I am a woman and God cursed with me "that time of the month" and it really just boils down to that. I am just hormonal - like every other woman on this earth!

New Toy

Last week I got the new Motorola Slvr. I have been shopping for a new phone for several weeks. I was going to go with the Motorola Rokr, but the salesman at Cingular told me that Motorola was coming out with a new phone and to wait. Then I thought about getting the pink Razr. But I really wanted an MP3 player as part of my phone. An MP3 player, I think is the only recent techo gadget that I have not gotten yet. Can I just say how much I like this phone? It is fun!!

This phone is a MP3 player and camera. Now I just bought a new digital camera in December (which I still love). You can text message on this phone and I discovered last week how to email to a cell! It has Bluetooth. I also have a PDA, it has Bluetooth. So I send information to myself from myself. So MANY gadgets!!!!

Now, with my new position, I got a text pager. So, I can get blast emails from my company when I am “in the field”. I have this running argument with my co worker about this pager situation. I understand why they have it. But it is just one more gadget for me. He cannot seem to understand why our company is so antiquated that we do not get a Blackberry, do away with the cell phone, laptop, pager and just have one thing. Well then the company would have to provide wireless access for us to get to use the Blackberry. You can send & receive emails on this pager without internet access. I am sure it is a cost issue, which his argument is that it would be a write off for the company. But it is all about the bottom line and multiplied out, that would be a big expense. When I worked for the previous bank, I complained about how technologically deficient they were too. I think this company is no worse than any other large corporation. How technologically savvy is your employer?

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY

I love Valentine’s Day!!!! I am such a girl!!! I know a lot of people think that this day is over commercialized, but I do not care. I like that it is day dedicated to love. I like that it is a day that someone would typically buy me a gift or it gives me an excuse to shop for someone else. I like the fact that I have gotten contacted by 2 people today to wish me a Happy Valentine’s Day that I do not talk to on a regular basis. I like the day!

I went out of town again last weekend, and I am just now getting back into the groove of things. I went to St. Louis to meet my new boss and go over some details of the transition to my new job. I am pretty excited about the transition. I will be schmoozing and I like to schmooze!

After all the work stuff I went to a wine tasting. I had a good time, but wine tastings are hard. I am not a big wine drinker and it can be a bit overwhelming. I hung out with my cousin Ted too. He cooked for me and Emily again. It was great.

Then Saturday I went ice skating at the outdoor rink in Forrest Park. That was so much fun. One of the best times that I have had in a long time. Then to finish off a great relaxing day I ate at my fav restaurant, PF Changs. Great way to end the day.

I came home Sunday to a greatly recovering Grandpa. He looks thin, but other than that he is doing really well. He is making a great recovery. He may even come home this week!

Lighter side of things

This is Aide Tammy. She was so nice to grandpa and my family, she took very good care of him. We had a good time joking with her about her “big hair” so this picture is perfect, her big hair is even blocking my grandpa’s face.

Not only did we have a good time with Tammy, but we were able to get tools. A nurse brought us that thing you use to look in people’s ears. So we looked in each other’s ears & noses. Good times.

When we were having our family meeting about my grandpa with the doctor, he kept saying infarct. But it sounded like infart. After about the 4th time he said it, I could not contain myself anymore, so like the adult that I am I laughed – out loud. That made my cousin laugh, which made my aunt laugh. The doctor hardly even acknowledged the fact that we laughed at “infart” let alone crack a smile. How mature are we? But after the meeting several other "older" family members admitted they had just as immature thoughts about “infart” as I did.

Grandpa Update

Grandpa has made a miraculous recovery. He really has baffled the doctors. He was in what they called a coma. He woke up and they said that he was paralyzed on the right side. Then by the next day he was able to talk and move the right side. So, now the prognosis is that he had a major stroke and is now recovering. Even though he can talk he is not very coherent. He is very confused and does not know really what is going on. We are all so thankful for the recovery that he has made but we still have a long road ahead.

No sleep

This is my life with out sleep...

I called the hospital room the hotel room
The waiting room the living room
The hospital home
And a waitress the nurse

Then after I had 1 hour of sleep & then woke up for some excitement, I went back to sleep I had a dream that grandpa woke up out of his coma & sat up straight up in bed. Then I had a dream that I had this low back dress on and my back was FULL of big zits.

WHICH leads me to the strawberry. I cannot eat a whole strawberry because it reminds me of a big red nose with big white heads all over it. I just want to pop those zits!

Grandpa

I am sitting in the hospital today with my grandparents. My grandfather was brought in last night for a stroke. Last week he came in with a TIA (mini stroke that does not have lasting damage). Last night he had a "real" stroke. He cannot speak & now has added high blood pressure and pneumonia. They were going to run a bunch of tests on him but have decided against that since he has a high fever and the doctors cannot do anything right now anyway.

My mom - remember my mom, the trooper. She left for Hawaii, against her better judgment. She does not know the situation with my grandfather yet. I am supposed to be "watching" out for them. Apparently, I did not do such a great job. I know, I know, it is not my fault. But I sure am dreading telling my mom this. I am waiting for her call & hopefully she will call me before she gets on the computer & reads this. I am sure she will be on a plane tonight back home. She really needed this vacation too. But I think my grandma really needs her. I am supposed to be an adult here, but I feel pretty inadequate at this time. I feel just as much like a child as I did when I was a child. I just sit here - not knowing what to do.

Please pray for my grandparents and my mom.